This note was posted online by a dear friend of mine. It is something I desperately needed at this moment. So thanks Jes, and thank you Lord for loving me.
"Everyone longs to give themselves to someone, to have a deep soul relationship with another, to be loved thoroughly, and exclusively. But God says to a Christian, “No, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled, and content with being loved by Me alone. Discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found, you will be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you. You will never be united with another until you are united with me; exclusive of anyone or anything else, exclusive of any other desires or longings.”
“I want you to stop planning—stop wishing—and allow Me to give you the most thrilling, exciting plan you can imagine!!! I want you to have the best! Please allow Me to give it to you. You must keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things. Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I am! Keep listening and learning the things that I tell you.”
“You just want, that’s all. But don’t be anxious. Don’t worry. Don’t look at things others have gotten or that I have given them. Don’t look at the things you think you want. You just keep looking off and way up to Me or you’ll miss what I want to show you.”
“And then, when you are ready, I’ll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than anyone would ever dream of. You see, until you are ready, and until the one I have for you is ready; until you are both satisfied with Me and the life I have prepared for you, you won’t be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me, and this is the perfect love. And, dear one, I want you to have this wonderful love. I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your everlasting union of beauty, perfection, and love that I offer you with Myself.”
“Know that I love you utterly. I am God. Believe and be satisfied.”
~ Anonymous
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Three Months
It's been three months.
Three months of my life being turned upside down, spun around, and repositioned.
Three months of the worst and greatest pain I have ever felt.
Three months of rediscovering what I am all about.
Three months of questioning.
Three months of searching.
Three months of crying.
Three months of the most healing laughter ever.
Three months of growing.
Three months of being stretched to new limits
Three months of confusion
Three months of bitter sweet tears shared with friends, family, and alone
Three months of not knowing what tomorrow will bring but learning to trust Him in it
Three months of knowing tomorrow is new
Three months of knowing that one day things will be better
Three months of begging that this stupid boy will be let back into my life
Three months of trying to tell myself the only boy I need is Jesus
Three months of new opportuinties
Three months of learning how to be alone
Three months of learning how beautiful His love really is
The past three months has felt like three years. It has been the longest three months in my life. I cannot explain to you how weird it is to realize that it has only been three months, only 1/4 of a year, only 90 days, only 2160 hours. ONLY THREE MONTHS. How can this be? How can all of this have happened in three months and all of these feelings occurred in only three months? How could my life have changed so radically in three measly months?!
I have changed in those months. He has done some great thing. He is still working. I am still learning, questioning, searching. I still think that it will be a while, maybe another 3 months, until I feel great about all of this and He gives me some answers. . . it might be longer, who knows. But i do know that He is great. He can do great thing, he has. I mean, look what He has done in my life in ONLY THREE MONTHS!!!!!
I do not wish to go back to anything before these three months started other than to be able realize how better it would get. There are things I wish I could have back that have been taken away in these three months, yes, but I do not wish to go back. Maybe in three more months He will take that desire away, but if not, I know He has a plan. His plan for these past three months was for me to be in His hand, in His will, in His footsteps, in His love, in His glory. It's hard to see sometimes, especially when days seem like weeks, months seem like years.... but tomorrow is a new day, I don't know what He is going to do tomorrow, but I know I am going to love Him more than I did today, and hopefully I will trust Him a bit more too .
Three months of my life being turned upside down, spun around, and repositioned.
Three months of the worst and greatest pain I have ever felt.
Three months of rediscovering what I am all about.
Three months of questioning.
Three months of searching.
Three months of crying.
Three months of the most healing laughter ever.
Three months of growing.
Three months of being stretched to new limits
Three months of confusion
Three months of bitter sweet tears shared with friends, family, and alone
Three months of not knowing what tomorrow will bring but learning to trust Him in it
Three months of knowing tomorrow is new
Three months of knowing that one day things will be better
Three months of begging that this stupid boy will be let back into my life
Three months of trying to tell myself the only boy I need is Jesus
Three months of new opportuinties
Three months of learning how to be alone
Three months of learning how beautiful His love really is
The past three months has felt like three years. It has been the longest three months in my life. I cannot explain to you how weird it is to realize that it has only been three months, only 1/4 of a year, only 90 days, only 2160 hours. ONLY THREE MONTHS. How can this be? How can all of this have happened in three months and all of these feelings occurred in only three months? How could my life have changed so radically in three measly months?!
I have changed in those months. He has done some great thing. He is still working. I am still learning, questioning, searching. I still think that it will be a while, maybe another 3 months, until I feel great about all of this and He gives me some answers. . . it might be longer, who knows. But i do know that He is great. He can do great thing, he has. I mean, look what He has done in my life in ONLY THREE MONTHS!!!!!
I do not wish to go back to anything before these three months started other than to be able realize how better it would get. There are things I wish I could have back that have been taken away in these three months, yes, but I do not wish to go back. Maybe in three more months He will take that desire away, but if not, I know He has a plan. His plan for these past three months was for me to be in His hand, in His will, in His footsteps, in His love, in His glory. It's hard to see sometimes, especially when days seem like weeks, months seem like years.... but tomorrow is a new day, I don't know what He is going to do tomorrow, but I know I am going to love Him more than I did today, and hopefully I will trust Him a bit more too .
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Some interesting sights from today
Well today was beautiful.
I had lunch with one of my favorite people in the world, and one of the people who knows me best. It was so refreshing.
I saw some interesting things today :
I had lunch with one of my favorite people in the world, and one of the people who knows me best. It was so refreshing.
I saw some interesting things today :
- A billboard advertising a store that is "coming soon" in "52 miles"
- I was honked at by 5 different truckers
- on the disgusting side--- Green poo (NOT MINE) in a toilet... like lime green.... haha!!!!!!
- how good things are going in my life
- A friends face glow
- a movie that I felt like I was living
- roads that I have driven so many times, but they seemed new today
- a new look to an familiar face
- a family member fulfilled
Saturday, September 20, 2008
My Thoughts at the Moment
So I took a step in a direction, took a step and thought that I was lead in that way, that it was something He was giving me. And just like what I had feared, I think it was a step in the wrong direction. I hate that I think HE is giving me an opportunity and find out that it wasn't. Or maybe it was an opportunity to see something else, but right now all I can see is that it was a "failed" attempt. I am moving on in my life, I am not afraid to take opportunities when they present themselves, I am simply afraid of what to do with those opportuinites. And I hate that all I want is the thing I cannot have.
Lord, can I just become a nun? I just want to stay within the confinements of Your love. Nothing else. Boys are stupid. They are simply dumb. I don't understand why you have given me a taste of something great so that when I go taste testing nothing compares, all I want is the thing I knew was right.
Lord, I love you. Can you just speak so clearly to me that I have no doubt that it is You. Lift my spirits. I love you! Can I just go live in Copper Canyon and just love you? Can I just keep you to myself and be selfish? You are the one unfailing thing in my life, the only thing tha will never let me down. Am I alone in wanting to just go be with you? It's not that I don't want to share this love with others, I just don't want to feel like this.... I just want to be with you.
For anyone who reads this, it's just my thoughts at a moment. That's what this blog is for me, a place to write my thoughts. Ask me about them, don't judge my life upon them. And know that I know without a shadow of a doubt that He is in control and has a plan. I have faith in His goodness to His children.
Lord, can I just become a nun? I just want to stay within the confinements of Your love. Nothing else. Boys are stupid. They are simply dumb. I don't understand why you have given me a taste of something great so that when I go taste testing nothing compares, all I want is the thing I knew was right.
Lord, I love you. Can you just speak so clearly to me that I have no doubt that it is You. Lift my spirits. I love you! Can I just go live in Copper Canyon and just love you? Can I just keep you to myself and be selfish? You are the one unfailing thing in my life, the only thing tha will never let me down. Am I alone in wanting to just go be with you? It's not that I don't want to share this love with others, I just don't want to feel like this.... I just want to be with you.
For anyone who reads this, it's just my thoughts at a moment. That's what this blog is for me, a place to write my thoughts. Ask me about them, don't judge my life upon them. And know that I know without a shadow of a doubt that He is in control and has a plan. I have faith in His goodness to His children.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
I miss love...
I miss love shared with others. I have the greatest love one could ever imagine, yet i still long to be loved with the love of another who shares that love. Grrrr Why is that desire not quenched with the love from Him, the one PURE and EVERLASTING love?
Is it simply because I am woman, created from the side of another, to be his helper.... is that what I miss? Ugh!!
Or is it that i miss being someone's somebody. That i hate being that "single" girl in the midst of all of her "coupled" friends... or is it that I experianced something worth missing?
Is it simply because I am woman, created from the side of another, to be his helper.... is that what I miss? Ugh!!
Or is it that i miss being someone's somebody. That i hate being that "single" girl in the midst of all of her "coupled" friends... or is it that I experianced something worth missing?
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
our God is that great
How sweet is our God, how powerful, majestic, and awesome is He who gave it all for us. What would it mean to have a heart wholly abandoned to the Lord, to be captivated by Him? This beautiful and undeserving relationship that I have with Jesus is something that should utterly shape, define, and control my life. To be "devastated" by His glory, captivated in the greatness of His will and power.
At the moment, things are crazy! In a good way. I was accepted into an organization that I am really excited about being a part of, for you Ags that are reading this... it's MSC Hospitality. What an honor to be part of such a great organization, their sole mission, sole goal is to serve. SERVE!!! The very thing I desire to do on this Earth. Let me tell you, God sure did know what He was doing. As I was walking into the MSC to pick up my decision letter, I was asking God to help me deal with the fact that I got turned down and His will for me was to not be a hospitable but it was something else... haha! I'm sure God was just shaking His head at me!!! Because you know what, His will was for me to be a part of this, to be a part of something bigger, to serve in His name and make Him known!!! Talk about Him having a better plan than I could ever imagine!!!
Lately there has been moments that I feel like I am spinning my wheels, sprinting as hard as I can to find out that I am running on a treadmill and going NO WHERE! It is the crappiest feeling EVER! I am struggling to know where He wants me to go, the direction He is leading me in, I just want to MOVE. I want to GO! I want to DO! Not for me, but I feel like I am being useless to His kingdom right now. Or am I just suppose to be living for Him and that is making the difference to His kingdom? He will show the way, He's got it, He knows. Oh how I wish I could see the big picture sometimes, to know exactly what I am suppose to do at the EXACT time I am suppose to do it because I don't want to mess it up, I want to be exactly in line with His will, no matter the pain or the cost or anything.... but being the woman I am.... I want to know.... but see He is calling me to simply have faith. Which is what I have.... but a childlike faith to say "alright Father, I'm just gonna hold your hand and walk with you and experience with you because you are going to show the way" PERIOD!! I am encouraged, and annoyed, by this person in my life who's faith is unwavering, steady, strong, and oh so genuine. He is so in tune with what God wants for his life and so willing to follow, no matter the cost. It truly is beautiful. I know that is what God wants from me, in my own unique way.... It's just hard sometimes, you know? I mean let's be honest, I just do not feel like I have been given that gift, the gift of faith like this person. And that is okay... everyone brings something different to the table to make the feast beautiful and perfect.
Anyways, I find myself falling more and more in love with the Lord when I just let Him be lifted high. When I am driving and praising His name, WOW! I feel so incredibly loved, His presence is overwhelming. There was a moment this week where I saw someone else be moved by the Spirit.... it was so beautiful. He moves in His children, He loves us, He is here. How can we not be moved? How can we not be completely lost in His vast wonder and glory? To be in love with my savior is the greatest feeling I have ever experienced, but to be able to share that love with others.... wow! To look into someone's eyes and tell them that Jesus loves them.... wow. For that person to be moved by that.... wow! Yeah, our God is that great.
If you are ever having a day that just is not so fun, remember, God.... the God that created the universe, those vast mountains, those swaying trees, the hurricanes that sweep across the land, the stars in the sky...... that God.... He loves you in the most intimate way possible. Nothing can separate you from Him. He died for you on the cross so that you may live in that crappy day... Look up, He is there. He loves you. You are beautiful. You are in that day for a reason, a purpose. And He had a great plan for your life, one bigger and better than the one you have. Fall into the hands of mercy, love, and power and let them love you, mold you, and move you.
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
The key is Patience
I won't lie.
I am confused while completely at peace all at the same time. I know God has all of this. He has my heart, my life, my love, my EVERYTHING.... and He knows exactly what is going on. I just hate not knowing what to do, what action to take on things that I am unclear on. I don't want to not take action simply because I am unsure because I know He is faithful to catch me when I jump.... but I don't want to jump off the wrong way when He is trying to get to me jump the other way. I want to be right in my actions, to be deliberate, and to be glorifying Him in ALL I do. When I say ALL, I mean ALL. From the ways I talk to people to the very tender subject of me wanting to love someone that I cannot.
I have never wanted to be so deliberate and intentional in my actions than before. I honestly don't know if I was ever deliberate in my actions. But in the desire to be intentional comes the search for the right deliberate move. You don't ever want to deliberately be wrong... ya know? So in this I am humbly asking for guidence and direction.... but see the deal is..... in some things I feel very strongly about knowing that He is guiding me to a deliberate action (and run into a wall) and others I can't hear Him say a word about it. Is this what happens when you truely seek His direction in all aspects of life? Or am I doing something wrong? I desperately want clarity.... I want to be able to act on the peace that I feel inside of me but want to make sure it isn't just me but that peace is from the Holy Spirit.
There are two situations in my life that I am utterly confused on. I have never been in situations like either one of them. One will not leave me alone, it is a constant issue in my heart, an issue that I have prayed for the Lord to take, I have given to Him to take, that I am simply wanting an answer on other than the one that my heart is leading me to because the one that I am lead to, the answer that I feel in my soul, is not the easy answer. It's not an answer that I know how to handle being in the situation I am. So therefore it leads me to question if that is really what He is telling me, and if it is, what I am suppose to do about it. I am in a position that I cannot do a thing; so is that what He is wanting to show me??
The other situation is one that is so painful and frustrating. I have always struggled with trying to take the burden on myself, to blame myself for things others have problems with..... I come to the foot of the cross broken for this person and the relationship that is being neglected and battered. All I can do is be who I am and let Him take care of it..... what a hard thing to do when all I want is to love on people, to serve them, to have a relationship that glorifies Him. I am learning that sometimes people just don't care. I thought I learned that before, but seeing as though I am completely different, I am hearing the lesson through new ears. It is just frustrating because I know that I am here for a reason, that I am doing what is right.... I just have to cling to that.
The truth is, is that one day at a time I will be walking in the truth and He will be with me. The truth is that He is in control. The truth is that I am human and my faith is lacking at times. I am praying for direction and answers. I know that if I ask, he will answer, if I knock, the door will be opened. So I am going to patiently ask and patiently knock. The key to that is patience. And let me tell you, me and patience do not have a good history, but I feel that our relationship is going to be blooming.
I am confused while completely at peace all at the same time. I know God has all of this. He has my heart, my life, my love, my EVERYTHING.... and He knows exactly what is going on. I just hate not knowing what to do, what action to take on things that I am unclear on. I don't want to not take action simply because I am unsure because I know He is faithful to catch me when I jump.... but I don't want to jump off the wrong way when He is trying to get to me jump the other way. I want to be right in my actions, to be deliberate, and to be glorifying Him in ALL I do. When I say ALL, I mean ALL. From the ways I talk to people to the very tender subject of me wanting to love someone that I cannot.
I have never wanted to be so deliberate and intentional in my actions than before. I honestly don't know if I was ever deliberate in my actions. But in the desire to be intentional comes the search for the right deliberate move. You don't ever want to deliberately be wrong... ya know? So in this I am humbly asking for guidence and direction.... but see the deal is..... in some things I feel very strongly about knowing that He is guiding me to a deliberate action (and run into a wall) and others I can't hear Him say a word about it. Is this what happens when you truely seek His direction in all aspects of life? Or am I doing something wrong? I desperately want clarity.... I want to be able to act on the peace that I feel inside of me but want to make sure it isn't just me but that peace is from the Holy Spirit.
There are two situations in my life that I am utterly confused on. I have never been in situations like either one of them. One will not leave me alone, it is a constant issue in my heart, an issue that I have prayed for the Lord to take, I have given to Him to take, that I am simply wanting an answer on other than the one that my heart is leading me to because the one that I am lead to, the answer that I feel in my soul, is not the easy answer. It's not an answer that I know how to handle being in the situation I am. So therefore it leads me to question if that is really what He is telling me, and if it is, what I am suppose to do about it. I am in a position that I cannot do a thing; so is that what He is wanting to show me??
The other situation is one that is so painful and frustrating. I have always struggled with trying to take the burden on myself, to blame myself for things others have problems with..... I come to the foot of the cross broken for this person and the relationship that is being neglected and battered. All I can do is be who I am and let Him take care of it..... what a hard thing to do when all I want is to love on people, to serve them, to have a relationship that glorifies Him. I am learning that sometimes people just don't care. I thought I learned that before, but seeing as though I am completely different, I am hearing the lesson through new ears. It is just frustrating because I know that I am here for a reason, that I am doing what is right.... I just have to cling to that.
The truth is, is that one day at a time I will be walking in the truth and He will be with me. The truth is that He is in control. The truth is that I am human and my faith is lacking at times. I am praying for direction and answers. I know that if I ask, he will answer, if I knock, the door will be opened. So I am going to patiently ask and patiently knock. The key to that is patience. And let me tell you, me and patience do not have a good history, but I feel that our relationship is going to be blooming.
Friday, September 5, 2008
God is good to love and lead
You have made my day
Even in stormy weather.
I'm done singing off the rain
Cuz you make bad days better
Great is the name
when you come to mind
I am smiling
Ear to ear
Sweet thoughts of you
I am always in the mood to twirl around with you while it's raining
Even if it's a dream
You have made my day
Even in stormy weather
I'm done singing off the rain.
Cuz you make bad days better.
Great is the rain
That i am not afraid when i see you
All my fear goes away
-Shane and Shane
This week has been a great week. I have great friends; meeting new ones and reviving the old ones. I am so blessed to be a part of this life He has given me. Every day He pushes me into something new, somtimes it is very uncomfortable and other times it is the coolest thing ever. I am on the right path in life. God is loving and leading me and that is the only way I want it because as soon as he isn't the one leading my life, it gets crazy and not in a good way. I want Him to be shining through me and through my failures and my heartache. My heart wonders sometimes away from His greatness and looks back, but I must fix my eyes on Jesus so that I can remain safe in the shadows of His wings. That is the hardest thing for me to do sometimes. I apologize to those who have experianced me looking not where I should be. My heart is a very tender thing that He uses and that I abuse. One day I am going to be able to look back at all of this and know exactly what is going on and what He is trying to teach me, but until then I still believe that if we ask in earnestly to the God of Heavens that He will answer. He will show the way. We just need to be receptive, period.
Proverb 31:25
"[A wife of Noble character] is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs with no fear of the future."
I want to be a noble woman of the Lord.
Eccl. 3:11
"God has made everything Beautiful for it's own time. HE has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so, people cannot see the whole scope of God's work from beginning to end."
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
I am so that He may be
I am blessed.
I am loved.
I am taken care of.
I am chosen.
I am redeemed.
I am forgiven.
I am broken.
I am healed.
I am saved from doom.
I am created by the hand of the creator.
I am His.
I am uniquely me.
I am true.
I am a failure.
I am a soldier.
I am trying.
I am running.
I am sent.
I am so that He may be.
I am who I am because of Him.
I have changed from who I was.
He is everything good in me.
He is everything to me.
He is love.
He is kind.
He is good.
He is fair.
He is majestic.
He is honest.
He is truth.
He is wonderful.
He is my king.
He is my creator.
He is life.
He is everything right.
He is full of glory.
He is my love.
He is my Father.
He is gracious.
He is eternal.
He is trustworthy.
He is dependable.
He is in control.
He is yours, mine, theirs, and ours.
I am Good
For the first time last night I was able to say that I was good. You might think, well... great! But there is something so beautiful in saying that you are doing good when you truely are doing good. I haven't been able to say that I am doing good for months. I hate it when people lie when you ask them how they are, not that if they aren't doing good I want to hear everything that is wrong in their life, but it isn't a horrible thing to say that things are good but you are still living. I have been livin and facing this valley all while saying "I am doing alright", or "that things are going...." because that's how it was. I knew that one day I would be able to say I was good again, but did not have a clue when.
Things happen when you least expect them and (in my case) when I am completely unprepared and nothing like I would want it to. (I just think that is God reminding me that He is in control...) So last night when I was talking to this amazing person and having a conversation about the heart.... we were talking heart to heart.... you just don't get that with everyone. And he isn't just anyone, so having heart to hearts is hard because I am vunerable with the one person who has hurt me the most... but like I said... things happen nothing like I would ever want them to. Not that it was not absolutely amazing or anything. Anyways, I was able to say that I am good (FOR THE FIRST TIME) looking into the eyes that I never thought I'd be able to say that I was anywhere close to good due to the damage done to my heart by his hands. But never-the-less it happened. It was a bitter sweet and joyful moment.
Life..... Wow.
Six months ago I was so confused. I am so thankful of the place I am in right now and the truth I bathe in each day. I hate that He had to shatter my heart to get my attention, but I am pretty stubborn. I am thankful for each moment of each memory I have. I am still wishing that one day He will bless me with the opportunity to share those moments with this heart and new person in me with the new person in him, but God's got it. He knows what He is doing and it is not my worry or concern to know or care. I just know He has a better plan than I can imagine, and He knows how to love on me and knows what I need-- so why not let him fulfill those?
I have been set free from chains I didn't know existed. I have changed. And I can only hope tomorrow more chains are gone and I am changed for the better. Each day I have an opportuity to love our Savior and for Him to love me. Wow! How can that not make me better? I have experianced love that was not true and still had a joy that overflowed.... and now to think about THIS love.... overflow is such an understatement!!!!!
Things happen when you least expect them and (in my case) when I am completely unprepared and nothing like I would want it to. (I just think that is God reminding me that He is in control...) So last night when I was talking to this amazing person and having a conversation about the heart.... we were talking heart to heart.... you just don't get that with everyone. And he isn't just anyone, so having heart to hearts is hard because I am vunerable with the one person who has hurt me the most... but like I said... things happen nothing like I would ever want them to. Not that it was not absolutely amazing or anything. Anyways, I was able to say that I am good (FOR THE FIRST TIME) looking into the eyes that I never thought I'd be able to say that I was anywhere close to good due to the damage done to my heart by his hands. But never-the-less it happened. It was a bitter sweet and joyful moment.
Life..... Wow.
Six months ago I was so confused. I am so thankful of the place I am in right now and the truth I bathe in each day. I hate that He had to shatter my heart to get my attention, but I am pretty stubborn. I am thankful for each moment of each memory I have. I am still wishing that one day He will bless me with the opportunity to share those moments with this heart and new person in me with the new person in him, but God's got it. He knows what He is doing and it is not my worry or concern to know or care. I just know He has a better plan than I can imagine, and He knows how to love on me and knows what I need-- so why not let him fulfill those?
I have been set free from chains I didn't know existed. I have changed. And I can only hope tomorrow more chains are gone and I am changed for the better. Each day I have an opportuity to love our Savior and for Him to love me. Wow! How can that not make me better? I have experianced love that was not true and still had a joy that overflowed.... and now to think about THIS love.... overflow is such an understatement!!!!!
Psalm 118:23-24
"This is the Lord's doing, and it is marvelous to see.
This is the day the Lord has made
We will rejoice and be GLAD in it."
Psalm 117
"Praise the Lord, all you nations,
Praise Him, all you people of the earth.
For he loves us with unfailing love,
the faithfulness of the Lord endures forever.
PRAISE THE LORD!"
Monday, September 1, 2008
Running
Quotes that are running through my heart and mind:
"In this marriage of our hearts, there is no death due us part. For you are Eternal and I am Eternally Yours.... I never had love until I had you, and now I have everything. " - Sanctus Real
"For as much as she stumbles, she's running. " -Eli Young Band
These are two very profound statements, both of which are very impacting. At this point in my life I am running ahead to this beautiful life He has for me, I can't see anything, I don't know what it is going to be like, but I know that once I am there I will know it. I am in love with Jesus. Yes, that's right. In love. When I think about it, it fills me with this beautiful feeling. With Daniel I thought I never could be loved more in my life, I also thought I could never love someone with so much passion.... well as we all know.... I was soooo wrong. Like this God of ours loves us in a very intimate way when we let Him do so, and you should because you can actually feel what TRUE LOVE feels like. I cannot explain to you how exciting it was to discover that. And like every idiot, sometimes I don't remember that feeling, that truth about His love. But crazy thing, He knows how to speak to my soul and my soul listens when spoken to so soflty and powerfully like He does. All of that to say, that wilst running towards my love (therefore running to my beautiful life) I stumble, look around at the crappy situation that I might be in, and then get back up and start running again. "For as much as she stumbles, she's running."
Psalm 37:24
" Though they stumble, they will not fall, for the Lord holds them by the hand."
"In this marriage of our hearts, there is no death due us part. For you are Eternal and I am Eternally Yours.... I never had love until I had you, and now I have everything. " - Sanctus Real
"For as much as she stumbles, she's running. " -Eli Young Band
These are two very profound statements, both of which are very impacting. At this point in my life I am running ahead to this beautiful life He has for me, I can't see anything, I don't know what it is going to be like, but I know that once I am there I will know it. I am in love with Jesus. Yes, that's right. In love. When I think about it, it fills me with this beautiful feeling. With Daniel I thought I never could be loved more in my life, I also thought I could never love someone with so much passion.... well as we all know.... I was soooo wrong. Like this God of ours loves us in a very intimate way when we let Him do so, and you should because you can actually feel what TRUE LOVE feels like. I cannot explain to you how exciting it was to discover that. And like every idiot, sometimes I don't remember that feeling, that truth about His love. But crazy thing, He knows how to speak to my soul and my soul listens when spoken to so soflty and powerfully like He does. All of that to say, that wilst running towards my love (therefore running to my beautiful life) I stumble, look around at the crappy situation that I might be in, and then get back up and start running again. "For as much as she stumbles, she's running."
Psalm 37:24
" Though they stumble, they will not fall, for the Lord holds them by the hand."
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