our God is that great

How sweet is our God, how powerful, majestic, and awesome is He who gave it all for us. What would it mean to have a heart wholly abandoned to the Lord, to be captivated by Him? This beautiful and undeserving relationship that I have with Jesus is something that should utterly shape, define, and control my life. To be "devastated" by His glory, captivated in the greatness of His will and power.

At the moment, things are crazy! In a good way. I was accepted into an organization that I am really excited about being a part of, for you Ags that are reading this... it's MSC Hospitality. What an honor to be part of such a great organization, their sole mission, sole goal is to serve. SERVE!!! The very thing I desire to do on this Earth. Let me tell you, God sure did know what He was doing. As I was walking into the MSC to pick up my decision letter, I was asking God to help me deal with the fact that I got turned down and His will for me was to not be a hospitable but it was something else... haha! I'm sure God was just shaking His head at me!!! Because you know what, His will was for me to be a part of this, to be a part of something bigger, to serve in His name and make Him known!!! Talk about Him having a better plan than I could ever imagine!!!

Lately there has been moments that I feel like I am spinning my wheels, sprinting as hard as I can to find out that I am running on a treadmill and going NO WHERE! It is the crappiest feeling EVER! I am struggling to know where He wants me to go, the direction He is leading me in, I just want to MOVE. I want to GO! I want to DO! Not for me, but I feel like I am being useless to His kingdom right now. Or am I just suppose to be living for Him and that is making the difference to His kingdom? He will show the way, He's got it, He knows. Oh how I wish I could see the big picture sometimes, to know exactly what I am suppose to do at the EXACT time I am suppose to do it because I don't want to mess it up, I want to be exactly in line with His will, no matter the pain or the cost or anything.... but being the woman I am.... I want to know.... but see He is calling me to simply have faith. Which is what I have.... but a childlike faith to say "alright Father, I'm just gonna hold your hand and walk with you and experience with you because you are going to show the way" PERIOD!! I am encouraged, and annoyed, by this person in my life who's faith is unwavering, steady, strong, and oh so genuine. He is so in tune with what God wants for his life and so willing to follow, no matter the cost. It truly is beautiful. I know that is what God wants from me, in my own unique way.... It's just hard sometimes, you know? I mean let's be honest, I just do not feel like I have been given that gift, the gift of faith like this person. And that is okay... everyone brings something different to the table to make the feast beautiful and perfect.

Anyways, I find myself falling more and more in love with the Lord when I just let Him be lifted high. When I am driving and praising His name, WOW! I feel so incredibly loved, His presence is overwhelming. There was a moment this week where I saw someone else be moved by the Spirit.... it was so beautiful. He moves in His children, He loves us, He is here. How can we not be moved? How can we not be completely lost in His vast wonder and glory? To be in love with my savior is the greatest feeling I have ever experienced, but to be able to share that love with others.... wow! To look into someone's eyes and tell them that Jesus loves them.... wow. For that person to be moved by that.... wow! Yeah, our God is that great.

If you are ever having a day that just is not so fun, remember, God.... the God that created the universe, those vast mountains, those swaying trees, the hurricanes that sweep across the land, the stars in the sky...... that God.... He loves you in the most intimate way possible. Nothing can separate you from Him. He died for you on the cross so that you may live in that crappy day... Look up, He is there. He loves you. You are beautiful. You are in that day for a reason, a purpose. And He had a great plan for your life, one bigger and better than the one you have. Fall into the hands of mercy, love, and power and let them love you, mold you, and move you.