The key is Patience

I won't lie.
I am confused while completely at peace all at the same time. I know God has all of this. He has my heart, my life, my love, my EVERYTHING.... and He knows exactly what is going on. I just hate not knowing what to do, what action to take on things that I am unclear on. I don't want to not take action simply because I am unsure because I know He is faithful to catch me when I jump.... but I don't want to jump off the wrong way when He is trying to get to me jump the other way. I want to be right in my actions, to be deliberate, and to be glorifying Him in ALL I do. When I say ALL, I mean ALL. From the ways I talk to people to the very tender subject of me wanting to love someone that I cannot.
I have never wanted to be so deliberate and intentional in my actions than before. I honestly don't know if I was ever deliberate in my actions. But in the desire to be intentional comes the search for the right deliberate move. You don't ever want to deliberately be wrong... ya know? So in this I am humbly asking for guidence and direction.... but see the deal is..... in some things I feel very strongly about knowing that He is guiding me to a deliberate action (and run into a wall) and others I can't hear Him say a word about it. Is this what happens when you truely seek His direction in all aspects of life? Or am I doing something wrong? I desperately want clarity.... I want to be able to act on the peace that I feel inside of me but want to make sure it isn't just me but that peace is from the Holy Spirit.
There are two situations in my life that I am utterly confused on. I have never been in situations like either one of them. One will not leave me alone, it is a constant issue in my heart, an issue that I have prayed for the Lord to take, I have given to Him to take, that I am simply wanting an answer on other than the one that my heart is leading me to because the one that I am lead to, the answer that I feel in my soul, is not the easy answer. It's not an answer that I know how to handle being in the situation I am. So therefore it leads me to question if that is really what He is telling me, and if it is, what I am suppose to do about it. I am in a position that I cannot do a thing; so is that what He is wanting to show me??
The other situation is one that is so painful and frustrating. I have always struggled with trying to take the burden on myself, to blame myself for things others have problems with..... I come to the foot of the cross broken for this person and the relationship that is being neglected and battered. All I can do is be who I am and let Him take care of it..... what a hard thing to do when all I want is to love on people, to serve them, to have a relationship that glorifies Him. I am learning that sometimes people just don't care. I thought I learned that before, but seeing as though I am completely different, I am hearing the lesson through new ears. It is just frustrating because I know that I am here for a reason, that I am doing what is right.... I just have to cling to that.

The truth is, is that one day at a time I will be walking in the truth and He will be with me. The truth is that He is in control. The truth is that I am human and my faith is lacking at times. I am praying for direction and answers. I know that if I ask, he will answer, if I knock, the door will be opened. So I am going to patiently ask and patiently knock. The key to that is patience. And let me tell you, me and patience do not have a good history, but I feel that our relationship is going to be blooming.