Lately I have simply been overwhelmed, in every sense of the word... the combination of school, work, hospitality, and a social life completely got out of control. I wasn't staying on top of anything other than work and my friends, so everything just seemed like one big wreck....
So I had to step back.
I had to look at the wreckage to figure out how I could move on and not feel overwhelmed. It's not so fun looking at a mess you've made and then trying to undo it. But there is hope, I have a strength and a savior that holds my life in His hands and won't let it get to a point where I can't walk from the wreckage.
I had a meeting with one of my professors a few weeks ago and she really hit the nail on the head. Her words, her care, her concern for me completely blindsided me... this woman who knows nothing of my struggles was calling me out on not being everything I am meant to be. I had never experienced that before, and boy it really hit me. (in a good way)
Since that day, since hearing her words " I saw so much potential in you, but I don't know where it went"... I have felt like ten thousand pounds were lifted from me, I feel like I can face this, that I can handle this... why? Because someone believes in me, because someone called me out on not being who I am suppose to be. Because the truth is I wasn't being who I am. I was hiding behind the craziness.... lost in the confusion and not seeing clearly. I wasn't living with passion, instead I was living in the shadows of what my passion built.
But those days are over.
I am back.
I am here.
I am in love with the blessings I am given and although there will be some rocks in my way, some stones to step on, I have my eyes on my goals and nothing will stop me.
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