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Tuesday, August 11, 2009

I'm just a fighter who's out with a black eye

So, prince charming always has a dark side, he usually turns out as the worst guy ever, or prince "charming" with the charming side that lures you into a trap just to keep you there so he can play with your heart.
Ergo, why not skip the step of being trapped and played with and just know what you are getting into at the start. Why not just forget the "prince charming" thing? Why not jump right into something you know when you start? No hidden labels, no traps hiding in the secret garden, no chase into the barbed wire.... but just a guy who might not even run with me or pull me behind but can just walk through things and not have a hidden side.
Tonight my girls and I were talking and it just came to me... the prince charming, he's the one who screwed me over. The prince is the one who stole my heart and broke it. So... well, why want the prince charming anymore? Why want the only thing that have hurt me so much? So. I'm not going to.
I want someone who if he is just rude and not the best, atleast it's up front and honest. I can handle it if I know what I'm getting into. I can handle things up front, I can deal with honesty about the failures and flaws. We all have flaws, we all have failures, we all have parts of us that we aren't proud of, but i'm not going to hide them if I want something more than just friends out of someone.
Am I in the wrong here?
Is this bad?
I want to protect myself, I want to stay clear of being hurt like I have been in the past, yet with that being said.... I know that anything that is worth the time is risky and anything worth the risk is worth the time.... or whatever.
I'm okay with the risk. I'm strong. I'm stubborn. I can hold up to things as long as they don't jump out and attack me. I'm aware that hurt is something that is a part of life as well as the fact that you cannot have something good that last forever until the ONE who lasts forever.... I can handle that. Don't hear me wrong here, I understand hurt is in my future, but I just want to know it's coming. I am more okay with knowing that it's in the future with someone who is honest than someone who hides their dark side....

and I am a fighter that has to sit outside the rink right now... and man o man if it hard. I love the fight, but at times you have to step back and let your partner have his own fight. So here's to the sitting the bench.

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