What a week.....

This week has been a doozy.
It started off by getting in my first wreck Monday evening after a great day at work.... It was not fun. I am okay, it wasn't a serious wreck by any measure, but it easily could have been and I am very thankful it was not. I was rear-ended by non-other than a lifted PINK GMC pickup with a young PINK HAIRED girl driving whom proclaimed she "didn't even see me or slow down at all" as soon as she got out of her vehicle. WHOOO WHOOO!! Thank you very much captain obvious, I figured that one out when you SLAMMED into the rear of my vehicle slamming me into the person in front of me... duh. So that was a TON of fun. . . and by fun I mean the kind of fun you have when you have blood taken at the doctor and they can't find a vien but keep sticking you.... yeah. F-U-N

So that was my Monday....
Tuesday followed suite by being filled with a horrible headache and no relief in my butt.... literlly. I later found out I had a minor concussion and pulled a muscle in my butt... yes, my BUTT!! I have no idea how the heck that could happen, but I would be the one who figures out how to pull a muscle in her butt while SITTING down!!! (( that should be written on my gravestone...))
This week was just hard... the wreck, the world being the world and not being perfect or anywhere close...


All my life I have been taught the right way, to be fair, to be just, to be honest, to be true in all you do, to not cheat, to choose right from wrong... to have character. And while I was being taught that the people teaching me that also lived it, so it was a great example to be able to live by because life wasn't peachy all the time for my parents, people weren't always honest and good to them.... but no matter what, we were taught to have character in every situation not only because that was the way we are called to live as Christians, but it is a better way to live. As I have grown and experianced life first hand I have discovered that calling it the "better way" is hard, it is not easy, not anywhere close to being easy or even expected anymore. It is so sad. I hate it, really HATE it. It's a "surprise" to actually encounter truly honesst and good people whom live their life with honesty.... what a shame. What a shame that our world has come to a place where living an honest life is sacred and scarce because even if you started out on the narrow path of honesty, somewhere along the way you get bullied into playing politics or cheating someone out of something they deserve simply because it's easier to lie about it, or because it's not as scary fitting in with everyone else.

Does anyone else see this?
Does it not irritate anyone else?
Are you okay with this?

I know that "it's just life", but why? Why do we just excuse behavior that we know is wrong? Yes we are ALL sinners, we are ALL just as human as the next person... but that doesn't mean that it is right to screw others over just because it is comfortable being completely human with no genuine character. Or why is it that the one whom does have the character gets beaten and bruised more than anyone else? It's like we get punished for standing up for what is right... I know that the Bible tells us we will be prosecuted for standing up for Christ, but why has it come so far as to just telling the truth and not even about evangelising? Our lives do truely speak louder than any word coming out of our mouths....


Like when you cannot even look someone in the eye after you have done them wrong, or when you don't acknowledge someone's existence after spending over a year with them in your life DAILY.... hmmmmm....
Ohh the things that screams to me.
ha

One day....
One day....... ohhh what a day that will be too.

Something else that has been on my mind...

I am such a hopeless romantic, not an over the top romantic, but the kind of hopeless romantic that I love to listen to love songs and dream, or see movies and dream.... I am so okay with being single right now. Really. I mean, what girl doesn't want to have a guy at any point in their life...but I am okay with not having a guy in my life. I'm young and enjoying living life. But I pray that one day I won't be single any longer and will meet "that guy" for me. And I have just been praying about him... praying that God is the center of His life, that he knows the greatness and awesome power and love found in Christ our Savior, praying that where ever he is in life that he is not living for himself but for Jesus.... and I pray that I meet him not when he is "searching" for me, but when he is running in the way that God is taking him and that I may run into him along the way....

It's really neat for me to sit and think about all the things that I am looking forward to in a mate... they are things that are totally different than things I would have told you a year ago.... I have learned so much about myself and about the sheer fact that this breath of a life i have is not about me, but about glorifying my Jesus... and that even means in my relationships!!

I'm not obsessing over thinking about my future husband or anything, so don't go thinking that... I think it is healthy to pray for your future spouse wherever they are in life, I think it will be so cool to one day tell my husband that I was praying for him and in certain ways so that he may be encouraged....

Life isn't about me.

It's not about the dreams I have to do really cool things or to be a cool person that knows alot of people...

It's not about falling in love and making babies and raising those babies.... blah blah

Life isn't about how much money I will make or the things I own

It's not about the acomplishments I obtain or the awards I recieve.

It's not about my goals....

It IS however completely about glorifying God and living a life that is not my own but to live for someone else..... for Christ.

I pray that I will be able to completely live like that.... it's hard int his world to not be selfish or think that it is about you... because after all, that is what everything around you tells you. I hope that when I die people can say that I was selfless, that I didn't live for myself but that I followed my Jesus wherever He lead and glorified Him with every valley and every hilltop.

So no matter what kind of doozy week I had.... it is over now, it is NOT about me... and God is, was, and always will be GOOD.