Watching the rain wash away my 'plan'

It's like watching the rain...

Its like when you see the rain you have a moment of "oh darn, it's raining outside. I have to stay in. I kinda feel blue now..." , BUT then you watch the rain land on the soil and you see the flower perk up. . .

The rain not only washes the dust away that you maybe didn't ever see on that beautiful bloom, but it waters the deepest roots of the flower to give it the nutrients to grow.

I've always known God's patience with me was something I could never imagine... that His love is so much stronger than my stubbornness to try to go another way or find His way in MY way...
He loved me every moment of my life, good and bad.
He died for me, the crazy rebellious me, and the woman He knew I would become...

With that being said, He could have just stopped there.... but my God is a loving, jealous God and He knows no limits to His Glory.

I don't even know where to start.... other than to say GOD IS SO GOOD.

His 'rain' in my life has nurtured my deepest roots and cleansed my surface. God has not only given me the gift of an amazing job that I love and all the goodness that comes with that, He has blessed me with opportunities like purchasing a house, and becoming a business professional in this amazing community..... In addition to giving me amazing Angels in my life that are true friends, women of the Lord, and amazing lights in my life. People that I never imagined existed, some that I knew all along and that have really become amazing sisters in Christ, and others who I just maybe had a passing glance of existence but God has put them smack dab in the middle of my road. . .

I have never felt such unrelenting JOY before. . . not just because I have this absolutely wonderful MAN in my life, but because everything that is important to me points me to my Savior in some way or another. ((( even the amazing MAN!! -- eik -- )))

Who knows what is in store, but all I know is I feel like the joy and blessings I have right now in my life could last me forever.

I never expected to be here. Not now atleast. I guess I had this timeline of trying to just get everything in order and clean out my life a bit to make it easier to function.... but you see God has a different way of doing things: HIS way!

When talking to my mother this weekend, I told her that all of this was not in my plan. She said, "Well what was your plan....?" ............. ............ ........ I responded, delayed, but still responded, "Well if I had a plan, this would NOT have been part of it!"

That pretty much sums it up.

No, I didn't really have a black and white plan, but I NEVER in my wildest dreams expected such joy, happiness, and so many blessings all at once after such a rough time in my life. I guess this has just been God's way of holding my hand and leading me to the things he had prepared for me all along, and the abundant blessings He had in mind for me since before I was born.